Yes, I was one of the crazies that got ridiculously worried about the world ending last Friday. I didn’t want to be paranoid. I didn’t want to buy into a conspiracy theory. I usually don’t. But I couldn’t shake this one. So we got pseudo-prepared and had a little family hiatus together.
Obviously, since we’re all still here and fire did not, in fact, rain down from the skies, I was wrong. And I’m so glad I was. But I’m also glad we took those few days together. The prospect of falling asleep Thursday night and not waking up to a Friday morning really forced me to look at what I value in life. And the memories we’ll all have due to mommy’s paranoia will always be with us, regardless of the fact that my fear was unfounded.
Evaluating my values gave birth to new goals. I’m not all about New Years Resolutions. There’s a reason they get abandoned by the end of January; a calendar number changing doesn’t inspire real change within people. Life experiences and inner motivation/inspiration do. So here are my post-non-apocalyptic resolutions:
Enjoy the Time I Spend With the People I Love
There were so many words I said Thursday night that should have been said a long time ago. There were so many moments over those couple of days that ordinarily would have seemed, well, ordinary. But because I thought they may be the last, they were monumental. Sometimes I get so caught up in my to-do list that I forget to enjoy the things we’re actually doing. Moving from activity A to activity B becomes something to accomplish rather than something to savor. My goal is to continue managing everything I have to manage in life, but lower my expectations of what I will cross off my to-do list in a day in order to appreciate the wonderful life I’m living.
Make Music a More Integral Part of Day-to-Day Life
I love music. The people I love love music. But for some reason it’s been one of those things that’s gotten lost for me in the everyday hustle and bustle of life. My goals are to listen to more, expose myself and my children to more, and redevelop old musical talents. That includes everything from streaming music to playing music to going to a concert even though my practical side may say that it’s not a necessary part of our budget.
Have More Date Nights
A few nights before the world was going to end, the boyfriend and I made it a point to have a much, much needed date night. We haven’t done anything like that in such a long time. And we realized how important it was. Not just for our relationship, but for our individual sanities. Even if it’s a free activity, my goal is to do more together without the little ones.
Happy Christmas Eve! And whatever other holiday you may celebrate! I’m so glad we get to continue living our lives together on this beautiful planet. I hope we as a human species choose to do so with abundant love.